Two weeks ago I said goodbye to my companion of 13 years, my beloved sweet cat Minou.
My heart hasn’t been the same since. I’ve never known a pain like this, it’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. The ache is still there.
My house feels lonely and empty without him. Life won’t ever be the same.
Minou was the best thing that ever happened to me. He taught me how to care and love for a being. He gave me unconditional love in return. He was a constant in my life when so many things weren’t.
He was a rescue. I always say we rescued each other.
He was a beautiful grey manx with green eyes.
Up until the very end he was a fighter.
He was in and out of the vet’s office a few times since the fall. His kidneys were failing. He lost a lot of weight and deteriorated rapidly in the end, losing his mobility.
It was sad to see him this way, a shadow of his former self.
I rushed him to emergency on the day before I was to put him to sleep. He was trembling and crying out in pain. It was heart breaking.
He was passing as I arrived at the animal hospital. I was told he had but a few moments left. So I held him in my arms crying and saying goodbye.
He shocked everyone by coming back to life. I like to think Minou felt he hadn’t given his mom a proper goodbye. I held him in my arms for hours before I made the decision to let him go.
A friend came to keep me company. I regaled her with stories of Minou’s adventures while he sat purring contentedly in my lap.
I guess he wasn’t ready to go because the vet had to change his catheter and then administer twice the dose of the injection to stop his heart. Again an unusual occurrence.
By then all of us were crying. I was telling Minou it was ok to let go and that I’d be ok. Even though my heart was breaking and the last thing I wanted was to let him go.
He passed peacefully in my arms. The love of my life.
The weeks since have been difficult. There’s been a lot of sorrow.
I miss Minou terribly and wish I could have had more time with him.
I imagine him up there creating havoc, chasing squirrels and lying in the sunshine, happy and healthy.
Thank you Minou for being such a good friend. You’ve left your paw prints all over my heart.