Magic. It’s what the man I love and I have when we are at our best. It’s what we experienced the first couple of weeks we were back together. It’s what I believe we are truly capable of.
We are not in a good place. There seems to be constant obstacles to our success together. Lately I can’t seem to do anything right by him, in fact, I seem to be a constant source of aggravation for him. The distance between us doesn’t help. I wrote a post this morning which upset him, he has asked me not to air our dirty laundry in public. I haven’t always been great at respecting his wishes. It has susbsequently caused him to want to give up on us. What’s worse is I received the news by text and phone, wonderful.
We have had a rough week, there have been lots of fights and we haven’t been the most resourceful at dealing with them. I can be pretty demanding in wanting attention in terms of time and contact, I know that but I don’t think asking to speak with your partner every day is a big deal. It seems to be for him.
I don’t know what do at this point, I am at a complete and utter loss. I know that once again I am heart broken, sad and angry. I do believe in magic and I do believe in the magic we are capable of creating together. I don’t think he does.