My partner and I got into yet another argument today. I’m not sure what’s happening in the universe at the moment but it’s been a week of fights. I’m wiped as I’m sure he is and we are both fed up of the pattern. I was hung up on today and then shut out, all communication cut off. Not a good place to be for a person who fears abandonment the most is it?
So I had a rotten afternoon at the store with that stinking feeling as my only company. It’s a wonder how I managed to deal with customers at all, it was thankfully pretty quiet. I would alternate between tears, anger and disappointment. I went to yoga, still the icky feeling followed me. Finally an olive branch was extended and an invitation to dinner presented.
I don’t know why we do this to each other. It hurts us both and makes us withdrawn and tentative. There is a little more damage done every time we fight. I’m not sure what the greater purpose behind all this is but I wish it would reveal itself soon because neither of us want to put up with any more of the fighting.