Sadness has hit since Sunday, it comes in waves, at any moment my face is wet with tears. I miss my best friend, the one I couldn’t wait to share my days with. The one whose arms I sought to find comfort and love. The one whose body wrapped around mine at night and made me feel safe. I miss my skiing soul mate. Watching the snow melt at such a rapid rate is a painful reminder of what we loved doing together and where we shone best.
I know where we are at is for the best, it became an untenable situation but I am human and grieving a loss. I miss the way he made me laugh, his generosity and kindness. I chose to remember the good. Good bye my love. I wish you well. I know I wasn’t always easy to love. You may not have loved me the way I wanted you to but you did and for that I will always be grateful. I learnt a lot with you. I’m still sifting through it all.
I know I will come out of on the other side of this sadness healed.